On this 17 hour road trip back home.. I started to reanalyze everything in my life. And how the ones I like and love never reciprocate the same efforts I give.
never even (with only few exceptions.) Regarding the efforts I have to this guy Im currently interested in stops talking to me- instantly I start to blame myself for the reasoning. Finding anything.
All of a sudden a road sign flashed at me, as if to get my attention (like road signs are supposed too hah ) but it read “give yourself a break”
Idk if it is ironic or a sign for me to actually give myself a break from beating myself down and accept that maybe it was them or that they were right for you in the first place. I just so badly want to find someone that loves me as much as I do. Time will bring that. Let’s hope.
<p>I see post of everyone saying how fucked they are going to be that night, but honestly all I want to do is spend it with my dad and family, and Katey. I don’t know where I would be right now without them. They are the ones that have been here for me through the toughest time in my life so far & I can’t thank them enough for sticking out this year with me. Because for all I know without them I should be here to celebrate another year. </p>
<p>The only thing I would change is if I could spend it with dalton again… We might not have ever had a New Years kiss because he always passed out before midnight but the feeling of waking up to him the first hours of the new year were the best. I knew the years would be easy but him by my side made it worth it. No matter how challenging they were. I miss you so much dalton it’s not even funny. I still am not able to move on from you, but I don’t care. You were my world & made me the strong women I am now. Wait for me in heaven cause I’m coming for you. </p>
<p>The years go by and times change but the feelings and the love we had will never leave me heart. </p>
<p>Cheer to the new year, my dear followers. & celebrate with the ones you love.
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